starting over...again

so, i've been struggling with feeling like i can't possibly do all the things i need to do and feeling overwhelmed by all of the parenting the kids need.  but mostly missing michael so much that it physically hurts.  then this morning when i woke up, it came to me that need to do something for me...something creative that i enjoy.  then i remembered this poor little lost blog i tried to start and remembered that i do love taking pictures.  and thought this is a good way to also record feelings and memories (though some of my feelings lately i really don't want to remember).  i do think that writing things down sometimes gives better perspective, especially when one is feeling sorry for oneself.  so i am attempting to start over and do better at recording all the things that are happening in our family.  i will go back and put some things in from the past few months to catch up a little.